11 October 2010
Why did you guys come back after so long? After you've figured out that I've grown stronger, I'm able to make things right and even much more better than what all of you have predicted, after I've picked myself up.Are you guys even friends at all? Cause to me, friends don't dump friends when they are in their worst moment. Friends don't push friends into the furnace. Friends don't leave friends alone when they are faced with problems that are do or die.
I am cautious with who I mixed with now. I know a girl who is a party girl. But since she started her new job, she knew another girl. This new girl introduced her to drugs. Now, I've never seen her when she's not high. Whenever I go drink at this pub, I'll see her and her new friend together, without fail. Her friend will look super awake and she will be super high. Her friend does not bother about her, and, I don't know. I.. pity her.. Her friend doesn't give me good vibes, and... She just got stuck to this friend and dump her cousin. They used to be really close, as in, they have sleepovers, they do everything together. Once she made this new friend, she dump her cousin. I guess it's the drugs that are making her sticking to this new friend.
But, the cousin is still looking out for her without fail. I know it, and I like the cousin more than her. I do help to look out for her when she's drinking there and I happen to be there. I am not in close contact with her tho'.
So, shouldn't friends watch each other back, help them up when they're down? Say, even if friends have no means to help friends, shouldn't they just hug together and cry together and after crying, try to solve the problems together?
I used to have a few really good friends. I tell them every single thing that happened to me. They have very different personality, but they do have one thing in common, which pisses me off much, few years back. That one thing that they have in common is that they don't listen quietly for you to finish complaining, whining, whatever shit. They will interrupt your sentences with unasked advices. Ohh, and I was the one who introduced them to each other. After I got to know this certain guy and shit happens, I was forced to come to a decision which was a do or die situation. I was in a dilemma. I sought their help. They gave me the die decision. I can't make this decision as I was forced on the do decision. So, I ended up choosing the do decision.
In this kind of situation, what would true friends do? Wished their friends all the best? Or, just leave them till they decided to come back to you? Or, just disappeared without saying anything?
I am not blaming anyone on this, but as a friend, shouldn't you just accept who your friends choose to be with at the end of the day even if he/she made a wrong choice? How hypocritical is that? If I were in this situation as a friend of the 'victim', I will stay with him/her all the way. I wouldn't just disappear without saying anything even if I know that he/she is making a wrong choice in their partner. Yes, I would persuade them to leave their bf/gf, but if they choose not to, I will still stand by them no matter how much I dislike their partner.
Stop giving me stupid excuses. You come and leave as you please. What do you take me as?
I am what I am today, it's cause I believed in my husband, I know he can do it. I do have to thank you guys too, for letting me know that I shouldn't trust people easily no matter how close you are to them.
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