my right lower gum has been hurting for the past few days.. and yesterday i made an emergency appointment with Q & M dental clinic.. went for my appointment and the dentist checked my gums for me and realise that i'm growing wisdom tooth there.. it was growing horizontally instead of slanted.. so she has to give me a minor op to get it removed.. the whole operation took anout 1 hour.. and i wasn't sleeping.. i was just given anaesthetic. after the op, my mouth was very swollen. i can't feel a single shit or my tongue. after that i was sent home and i couldn't eat a single shit.. all i could do was to drink water and soup.. and drinking water hurts my wound too.. i have to tilt my head to the left and swollow the water or soup.. i have to eat my medication evry 6 hours.. which made me can't sleep well and everything.. i feel so crap and shitty that i didn't sleep well the whole night.. basically, i felt crap and my mouth hurts and i can't sleep well and my bf was there keep spamming me sms-es and keep asking m questions which will affects 'our future' and here i am feeling crappy and stuffs and he didn't bother asking me how am i feeling already and stuffs like that. i can't talk, i can't eat, i can only drink. now, my mouth is swollen.. even more swollen den yesterday.. i feel so crap till i do not know how to type it in already....

16:32

school has start.. so have no time for updates... hahas.. so for now, my updates will be taking longer as i have to concentrate in my studies.. as it's my O levels.. haha.. that's all for now.. nothing really that interesting to blog down here..

02:24

yes.. i do feel free these few days.. but then again, it has also been a problematic and challenging days. i uses these days to think about what i really want.. be it in life or in relationship or material wise. i talked to my frens about it, about us. they all told me not to get back to you just like your frens telling you that i'm out enjoying myself with some other guys and you are sitting there, drinking and mumbling to yourself. well.. we will never know which is true. who knows? here i am, talking to you on the phone and writing this blog. to be frank, i do not have much to say to you. seeing you turning this way, drinking every night till morning, go gym till afternoon and basketball after that and still not sleepy. you yourself already knows that you are sick. and that you are very 'xin ku' and yet you don't want to get any rest, how in the world are you going to get well? and what makes you so sure that the things that you heard from my bro or mum about eric are all true? they all doesn't like eric. that's for sure and it's a bias point of view. so no point listening and believing it unless you've seen it for yourself with your own eyes.

i don't know why you are thanking me after you said so much about me hurting you. up till now, you are still calling me 'bie'. so i don't really know what you want. at one point of time, you were so sure that you wanna be with me. you wanto create a future with me. at another point of time, you do not wanto be with me. i do not know whether you know this is contradicting or not, but den again, this is really contradicting. and i really have no idea what you want. but i know what you NEED. you NEED a good rest and wake up feeling refreshed and think carefully again what you want. as someone has once told me that out of 10 people, 11 people don't get what they want. so you only work towards what you are good at den you will be successful. not what you are interested in. if you work towards what you are interested in and got it, you will realise that you are no longer interested in it. that person told it to me using jobs, careers as an example. now i'm telling you this in this relationship wise. that's why i say you need a good rest and think through it again when you wake up. pushing yourself to the limit is not the way out. you said you remember all those first times. i'm touched that you remember these. cus i have really bad memory. and i don't remember such stuffs.

you said giving flowers to your gf is a taboo. den why do you still want to give me a bouquet of flowers? perhaps after you given me that bouquet of flowers, it changes everything? have you thought of that? you can choose not to answers these questions and choose not to close down your blog as it can still serve as our communication ways. it can still serve it's purposes.

wise words of the day: if they say they really know, what do they really know?

10:03

sigh... humans are really funny.. sometimes, it's even the pot calling the kettle black.. well.. talking about lying, who doesn't lie and who doesn't know for a fact that we need to use 10 lies to cover up 1? who dare to say that they have never lie before? i bet that no one will dare say that.. cus somewhere or somehow they humans will have said at least one lie to someone before. so please don't go around calling people a liar or wat not. cus it will be the pot calling the kettle black.. if you think i'm talking about you, please do not think too much. i'm just trying to improve myself on composition writing.. (",)

sigh.. why are people being sacarstic to others when they don't want them to be sacarstic to them? being a doctor is my aspiration. i dare to dream i dare to work my way towards it. if you don't have aspirations, please do not put me down. if living a life as a human being, you do not have an aspiration, you are being a very lousy human being as you do not have a goal in life. i have a goal in life, that's cus i believe that having a goal in life is something that keeps you going and be the best in the things that you do. most importantly, you learn to cherish your life instead of just destroying it. i mean if you choose not to cherish your life, you might as well just end it. isn't it?

just like if you can't be a lover/bf/husband/soulmate to that particular someone, you guys still could be friends. isn't it true? if everyone chose not to cherish their life when some guy/girl broke up with them and asked to be friends only, does that mean that everyone who has been heartbroken before have to end their life? no! if that's the case, everywhere around the world will have alot of news in people killing themselves and that would be so common that it's not much a surprise if your kin or friends killed themselves after they had been dumped. isn't it true?

Wise words of the day: stop calling the kettle black when you are a pot.

Quote of the day: Do unto others what you want others to do unto you.

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Queen Sammi
Complicated with a touch of Simplicity