zouk last night!! so happening lahz... but then again.. i can't drink much.. was into my 2nd bottle of heineken then was feeling abit breathless le.. so sianz lorx.. hmmm... can't dance for long, can't drink.. i think it's really time for me to stop clubbing le.. sigh.. lost another way of de-stressing myself.. hahas.. went east coast park this afternoon.. but.... before i went there, i did pack my side of the room.. hahas.. den go de lorx.. today i so good girl.. wash my own fan and pack my own stuffs.. hehe.. gimme a prize or a trophy for it!! *thinking about what i would want for a prize* i think a wish will do.. and that wish would be having unlimited wishes.. hahas.. who can do that for me? *wondering* hmmm... don't even start tagging or text me why i always go east coast.. IT'S TO SKATE!!! another hobby of mine.. hahas.. getting healthier le.. as 'usual'.. hahas.. yesterday also went to Far East Plaza to get 2 Bathing Ape tee-shirts and a Head Porter sling bag.. hahas.. spend about SGD$500+ there.. just at one shop.. hahas.. den went to mondo to get my heels.. hahas.. walk around den go swensen eat.. after that go cine watch movie lorx.. 27 dresses.. sweet and touching.. hahas.. that's all for today... heex...

23:55

sigh.. i just don't understand why are you so protective towards her. i got the answers that i always wanted to know today. you still got 'feel' for her. no wonder all these while, you are always helping her be it in the financial form or whatever it is. you promised that you won't lend her money anymore. you told me that you are just going to lend her 100 bucks cus her mum borrow from you de. at the end of the day, you broke your promise, be it you lent her a hundred bucks or 800 which is the amount that you lend it to her. you know i hate her, yet you are still helping her. i'm angry with you not cus of you lending her money instead of returning my fren money. talking about money, i know it's a sensitive issue. you can just take out 800 to lend her but you can't take out 800 to let me go thailand with my parents. i told you the truth that i'm going to thailand with my parents, you don't believe. you said that you want to go and check. so fine! go ahead and check. i'm just stumped for words when you said that you don't trust me. if you don't trust me, what for you are in this relationship with me? if you don't trust me, why says that you want to have a future with me and stuffs like these that makes me think that you trust me? you are just another fucking bastard. you have no sexual attraction towards me, and when you have the need, you come and look for me. wo do you think i am? some sort of social escort? or a whore? or even more lowly, like a prostitute? why don't you go look for that SUPER HOT EX, Vicky? i bet she will do anything for you if you just give her a lump sum of money or even a few hundred bucks. or even better, you don't have to pay her, just tell her that, that 800 bucks she doesn't have to return a single cent at all. you ask me what did i do wrong, why am i so angry when i don't even love you. let me answer you.

What did you do wrong.

1. you lied about the amount of money that you lent her.
2. you told me that you are lending her money AFTER you have transferred her a.k.a lent her.
3. you are not willing to give me the money to go overseas with my parents.

you don't trust me.

now that is where you did wrong. after all these mistakes, you still got the cheek to tell me that you are going to check the whole day flight from singapore to thailand on who i am going with. let me tell you this once and for all, I AM GOING WITH MY MUM AND UNCLE. i do hope this gets into your mind. cus if i doesn't, i'm going to literally knock it into your head. you think alot this few days. all you care about is THAT SUPER HOT EX of yours and her problems. ever thought of me or my problems? NO! i dare say that you have never thought of it at all. you said you are going to keep all your promises to me. i'm going to list down all the promises that you have made to me.

1. PSP Slim (white)
2. Nitendo DS Lite (white)
3. Ipod Theater
4. K850i (New Phone)
5. Digital Camera
6. the GoldHeart necklace
7. never contact THAT SUPER HOT EX of yours
8. never lend THAT SUPER HOT EX of your money
9. Return my friend $500 on your Birthday

have you fulfilled any of these? NO! you have not! which is why i am so angry. all these anger are accumulated de. n0t just let you 'hong' den will stop angry de. i'm punishing you in a way that i ignore your every sms-es and calls are cus i want to make you remember the mistakes that you have done and will not repeat them again! and i also want you to know that having tons and tons of money doesn't solve everything. money can't buy you forgiveness or happiness. you can bribe someone to take the rap for you but you will not live in peace. you will be haunted by the memory of it. and one day, the law will catch up to you. you can run now, but you can't run forever. it's the same logic. don't ever think that this has no link to what you have done to hurt me. not cus i want to hurt you or what shit. really, being with you will really cost me to lose a few years or even more. to be frank, you are the most stupidiest person i have ever seen. talking to you this way, i'm not scolding you or what, i just want to make you understand why i am behaving this way. i don't care whether you show this to your mum, sis or whoever you wanna show it to. really!! I DON'T CARE! this time round, i'm not in the wrong. i ask for a new hp, cus my camera is spoilt, my scroll is spoilt. not cus i want the latest model or what shit. i want a camera cus you promised me that.

you are just so unremorseful. it's not my fault that my phone spoilt at this time, it's not my fault that CNY is round the corner and i need New Year's clothes. you can buy her clothes, you didn't even discuss with me first. just promise her things without consulting me. do you think that's fair? you said you are not commiting anything into this relationship yet cus i didn't commit. didn't i try to love you, didn't i try not to hurt you? if i didn't want to commit or even don't have the intention to commit, why in God's name would i promise your father that i won't hurt you and that if i don't love you, i will leave you no matter what? doesn't it all makes sense? now i'm the one commiting and you are not. is that fair? and you claims or even worse, assumes that i didn't commit, that's why you did all these. it's so fucking unfair on me. i felt so hurt to hear that you know. sigh..

02:40

He is the most stupidiest person i have ever met. and to put it more nicely, someone who is fucking kind hearted. i don't know why but i just can't stand this kinda people. so fucking stupid. giving someone something, be it money or help or whatever shit you call it. so much that you yourself got problems. giving excuses to other people saying that they really NEED tha help but wouldn't explain the situation to them. and expect others to understand. how fucking stupid can someone or even a normal person with a normal level of IQ get? you are just so fucking stupid. if you happen to chance into my blog, yes, i'm referring to you! not anybody else! tell me.. how stupid can someone get? even the stupidiest stupidiest stupidiest person on earth wouldn't do what you are doing lahz. so what if you are fucking rich? you think you can just throw your money around huh? throw to her? might as well throw to me. i don't mind de lorx. can go buy stuffs that i really need. you came to my house before, you said i need to get alot of stuffs before i can make my house cosy and craps like these. you said you are going to help, but have you made any moves or shown any actions that screams that? no lorx! you fuckin' fucking idiot!

fuck you! you fucking moronic retarded!

01:17

tell me.. which is nicer... thinking of putting it on my hip..

03:56

03:42

went to chinatown today with baby Jeremy.. was kinda hungry.. went there walk around for awhile then go eat le.. saw the signboard.. ask the ah tiong a.k.a china people.. which should i order my food from.. then the ah tiong say oh.. we own this whole shop.. so you can just order from anyone of us.. ordered a green tea and an oolong tea.. guess how much it cost? SGD$4.00 lahz!!!! daylight robbery.. extorbition!! @.@ it's like soo CRAP lahz!!!! then for the food we ordered 2 prawn laksa.. sounds nice right?? but NO!! it sucks.. and it cost us SGD$10.00.. the ciggarette cost only SGD$10.20.. so much more cheaper and more shiok lahz!! CRAP!!! never am i going to eat at that shop again..

after eating..

continue walking around.. and bought some Mickey Mouse red packets.. for my mum.. haha..

went to a shop that sells sweets.. the guy damn stupid lahz.. keep asking me to try this try that.. end up very full.. haha.. all the sweets and jellies there are damn nice lahz.. lol.. den all i take 5 or 3.. ended up 3kg.. the guy throw in 1/2 kg for me for FREE.. haha.. total cost is SGD$53..

don't have enough cash.. went to Chinatown MRT to withdraw cash.. walk back to pay the guys money.. after everything, i stopped buying.. cus everything that i bought, i just dump it into baby's bag..

lucky he brought along a big big bag.. haha.. he carry.. as we walk, he walk slower and slower.. cus the bag getting heavier and heavier.. hahas.. hmmm.. after that we went back home taking cab..

it was such a fun and interested night at Chinatown.. hahas.. saw alot of interesting stuffs that i've never seen before.. some of the people there are really skillful and artistic.. will go there again next week..

00:39

there are so many things inside me that i wanna let it out. be it by yelling or whatever shit.. but i can't.. well... after what happened yesterday, talks and such, really helps alot.. cleared a big problem and for me. and stuffs like these.. hmm... this is like so crap.. so much things that i wanna say out here, but i just don't know how to put it into words.. so what can i do?? CRAP

12:45

you know.. sometimes i find that life is a joke.. especially my life.. why? you may ask.. hmm... now here's my answer to your questions.. i made some stupid decision before.. and most of these stupid decisions leads to big problems, troubles. i mean, whatever you name it, i've experience it before.. so yahz.. and sometimes, when i plan an outing or stuffs, it just doesn't goes the way i want it to go. i mean, there's always loop holes and cracks here and there if you know what i'm trying to say.. and sometimes, the plan really backfired, and it really spoils the mood.. i have this girlfriend named juneil. and i have this ex named jeremy. jeremy have this boyfriend named bonez. and bonez have this friend named..... i don't know what's his name, so we'll just call him A. A is looking for a job. jeremy asked him whether he wants to work in a nightclub. he says okay after me and jeremy explained everything to him. as in the pay wise and working hours. so i called juneil up and told her about it. and she arranged for monday to bring A up to jln sultan, the new place, for interview. msged jeremy, told him about it. got him to arrange the time with juneil again. juneil insisted me to go as i told her that i'm not going. as it'll be weird for both me and jeremy. so yahz.. and she pressured me to go..

well.. from this, we can actually say that my plan was for juneil, jeremy and A to meet up together for A's interview. but then again, juneil wanted me to go along. so it's kinda like crap. juneil always wanted things to go her way, and this time round, i'm not going to let it happen.

12:27

Chinese New Year is 'round the corner and yet i have not buy all my clothes.. this is really like so crap.. and yes, i know i've said alot of crappy stuffs.. but ohh well.. hahas.. this year, i really have no idea what to buy for CNY.. last year, i gave myself this theme, lady dressing.. but this year, i want goth dressing, but my mum don't allow.. so yahz.. and everything is black, with those accessories and black make-up..

*imagining myself in that kind of dressing on CNY...* muahahaha!!!!

this is like so crap!!! i'm like distant-ing myself from everybody, and talking to nobody. crawling back to the shell that i built myself in the past. is this what i can do right now? is this the right choice?

sigh...

i really don't know what to do anymore. i'm lost, confuse and confuse.

23:17

stop forcing me to gve you the answers! stop whatever shit that you are thinking or doing! you can't take it, you want to force me. when i can't take it, who am i going to force?! you?! stop being such a selfish bastard! yes! i've taught you how to protect yourself, but you are taking it to a next level and making people who is around you to leave you! i didn't teach you to be such a selfish bastard! get a grip! get on with your lousy life! go on and be a stupid carrot head! carry on being this way, and one day you are going to lose all your frens! and you will come crying back to me and complain to me how your life sucks, how you always meet those girls who are just like Vicky, that money grubber bitch! can't you just accept it that i really have no time for you today?! get a grip lahz! no one is forever free for you de lahz!! want someone to talk to, go find Vicky lahz!! she will always have time for you as long as you pay her a hundred buck or so! so... go find her!!! talk to her!!! she'll offer you a really good solution i believe!

i have totally no idea why i'm writing this.. this is like so crap!!!

16:59

long day today.. went hospital at 3.36am. to accompany juneil to see doctor. as she said there's no one accompaning her to the hospital. reach there, saw 2 of her frens with her. she still say that they are leaving in awhile's time. ended up, they accomapnied her till she's done. when she can leave, she didn't even say a word or even expressed thanks to all of us. it's like we should do it and that it's our responsibilities lorx.. this feeling really sucks lahz.. sigh.. after the episode ends, it's already morning 7 plus le.. went back to jeremy's place.. already 8 plus le.. sleep till 5 plus den wake up.. dilly dally abit, den go home le.. showered, changed den go JAY's concert le.. nice view lahz... so fun... so exciting.. will update the pictures again.. hahas.. he so cool lahz!!! hehe.. so humorous also.. I'M A DIE-HARD FAN OF JAY CHOU!!! LOL..

03:25

hmm.. went east coast park yesterday and today.. did the same thing.. and i'm not sick of it lahz.. hahas..

got my skates yesterday.. K2 Frontman at $512.. got knee guards and wrist guard.. total cost about $572.. den went skating for awhile.. about 1 hour and 15 mins later, i have not reach bedok jetty yet.. and i'm like skating at a super slow speed lahz.. if i walk, i think it will be faster lorx.. hahas.. and of course i'm teaching a newbie.. and that newbie is SMC.. hahas.. he have not put on his sktaes, he's already perspiring like shit.. hahas.. when he put on the skates, i teach him how to stand and move. but he's scared of falling down when he's wearing all the guards available except for the helmet which is useless.. 2 hours later, we have not reach the jetty and we actually U-turned back to the skate shop.. well, he didn't skate back... he walked back and i actually skate back to the shop and bring him his shoes... lol.. hmm.. well.. that's about it lahz..

got a phone call from my younger bro and actually rushed back home.. and guess wad?! i forgot to have my dinner.. had a long day yesterday lorx... slept at around 2am.. and first time i sleep so early for this year.. lol..

03:30

went out to queensway shopping centre today.. bought 3 pairs of Adidas socks and 3 pairs of FBT shorts.. haha.. with juneil, smc and aaron.. haha.. then we went down to Wisma Atrium, juneil bought 3 packets of Dragon Beard candy (Long Xu Tang).. went to her workplace, punch in her time card.. walk around Orchard Plaza.. hahas.. whole day like so bored like that.. nothing to do.. no aim in life.. no idea why smc's father is the same as smc.. do things slow slow de.. aiyahz.. don't know lahz.. wait for one small position also wait for so long.. duhz.. end up doing temporary baby sitting job for his nephew.. hahas.. so sianz.. now is like 2.33am.. got nothing to do lahz.. so bored.. haha..

02:16

i'm getting healthier!!! hahas... been to east coast park twice this week.. first time is to cycle.. with juneil and jeremy... hahas.. then second time is today.. is to skate... went to several skate shop with jeremy.. saw a skate i really like.. more on agressive and less on leisure skating.. k2 frontman $569 ($512 after 10% discount)... so damn nice lahz.. too bad i didn't take a photo of it.. really nice lorx... tried to do some stunts later in the evening den end up falling hard on my ass and till now, it still hurts.. hahas... little finger also hurts... hahas... who ask me lahz... trying to jump even before i can walk.. haven't learn the 'T' brake then do stunts.. lol..

had a really great but tiring day today lorx... but it was all well worth it.. and shucks!!! i'm hungry now.. lol..

hmmm.. go cook noodles and eat...

*stomach grumbling*

01:58

it's the new year!!! and i've let go of everything!!! that's a great start for me!!! haha!!! so freaking happy and happy and happy!!! haha!!! hmmm.... i'm doing great and well.. though the start of this year, there's some stuffs that un-smooth-ly going for me.. but oh well.. so far so good!! hopefully for this year, everything will be better.. BETTER THAN LAST YEAR!!! yeah!!!! hmmm... nothing else to say except that i've met an old friend of mine and he's like getting dumber and dumber... got relationship problem yet.... sigh..... the girl or should i say the ex is treating him like shit and yet he's helping her in everyway that he can but in my point of view and every little single point of view that i can see, she just don't fucking deserve it.. and i don't understand why is he doing all those things.. is he really that dumb or what? it's like everything is just so fast and whirling that he can't see clearly bahz.... hahas.... went to peek at xiaxue aka wendy's blog.. she had so much nice and inspiring posts.. i really salute her for her wonderful english and her courage to put tattoos... i want to put tattoos also but i scare of pain.. hahas.. no idea what or where to put also.. hahas.. maybe be another xiaxue, on the left wrist a snowflake as i like snowflake also.. hahas.. hmmm..

*pondering pondering pondering*

16:58

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