Isit really that hard?!
What happened now?
I don't know when did you stop running after me when I run away. I
don't know when you stop trying to soothe me. I don't know when I
start apologizing for the mistakes that you made. I don't know when
you don't even care whether I cry anot. I don't know when you stop
hugging me. I don't know when you stop holding me.
I don't know when all these start happening. I don't know when my
tears start flowing non-stop. I don't know when you stop bothering. In
fact, I don't know anything anymore.
It's like everything I did and change doesn't seem to get your
attention anymore. I am tired. I am upset. I am disappointed. I don't
know what to do anymore. I can't control me tears.
I don't know what to do to please you anymore. Everything I did, I
have you in mind. But... What about you? It's just work in your mind.
You don't care about me anymore.
Baby, I am really tired le. Please give me a break. Please tell me
what do you want from me. I've tried my very best already.
All I want from you is to spend some time with me and make me feel
better when I'm sick right now.
But when I called you at work, you didn't pick up. I text you,
needless to say, you didn't bother replying.
You only called me when you've finished work, and I've already text
you to tell you that I'm asleep.
You came back home, blamed me for not picking up the call when I have
not even blamed you yet. You woke me up, now I am unable to go back to
sleep. And yet, you're snoring away.
You asked me to come to you, I came to you. You asked me to lie on
your shoulder and sleep. I did as you said. But you're not hugging me!
You're just letting your arms loose behind me! And this is called hug
me to sleep?! I turned away, you asked me why. I said since you don't
wanna hug me, why ask me to come to you. You pushed the blame to me.
You said, you rush back from work just so that you can spend time with
me. And here I am finding excuses to quarrel with you. Eh, use your
brain can?! Why the hell would I want to quarrel with you?!
But when you came back, I dare say that the computer has more
attention from you than me. I cough my lungs out, you didn't even turn
around to even glance at me for once!
Is this called spending time with me?
You shut the computer down, you came to bed. We quarrelled. You start
snoring in less than 3 mins after successfully pushing the blame to
me. Ending it with, Aiyah, wadever lahz...
This is 'spending time together'?
Fine..! Wadever...! Even if I die, you also don't care lahz! You also
go wadever lorx..! Cus I'm gonna do just that to you from now on!
This always happen when I speak my mind. Stop getting so fucking
defensive can?! NBCB...!