23 February 2009
is this really the end? do you really not want IT? are you really going to be that heartless? thousands and thousands of questions on my mind... I'm just asking you one simple question out of so many questions... 'Why do you care?' you can't even answer me.
you kept saying that you are not the one who has let me down, i am the one who disappoint you. when i felt let down, i didn't even make a single hum, yet, every time we quarrel, you will say this. i am sick of this stupid sentence. think about it, every time i throw my temper, did i say why i throw my temper? i kept quiet when i throw temper and not scream about simply cus i am keeping things to myself to not make things worse as you will definitely throw your temper also. did you realise that i'm always keeping quiet, letting you decide everything. you may feel that i am the one who decide everything, but you are actually the one making every decision. including keeping IT.
Fine with me since you want it this way. fine by me. i don't care either anymore. since you've had enough of my nonsense, my temper, my everything, go find someone who will do everything your way. stop contacting me. i don't need your presence nor your money for taking IT away!
00:45
22 February 2009
nothing's going right... am to be blamed for everything... am at fault for everything happening... am at fault for making everybody upset...
i'm sorry for giving you up... (not you)
17:53
what's happening?! why must it comes to this?!
i know many people, especially that someone who is involve will blame everything on me. He thinks that i am the one who look for quarrels, threatens, and words come out from my mouth insensitively... well, you know what? I DON'T CARE!!!
where were the happier times? where is the once you that i know really well? must i suffer everything, bear with everything in the dark, silently? must i? you said i never give in, you said i am insensitive, you said i'm difficult to handle. i did give in, it's just that you never realise. i am sensitive, just that i'm straight-forward in my words. i am actually not difficult to handle. i just need my friends back, i just need a little bit of my freedom back. why can't you give me that simple thing. i've bottled too many things inside me already. you asked me why i didn't blog anymore, i told you i've got nothing to blog about. that's totally not true. i've got tons of things to get off my chest, i chose not to simply cus i didn't want to upset you if you sees it. when you see/read things that you don't like, you will chide me off, and we will then lead to a quarrel. i don't want to quarrel, i want a peaceful life!
i am happy when i know it! i want to give it a chance in this world! but why can't you just understand that i need more understanding and concern from you like you once promised me? "
I love you so much..i want to be with u i PROMISE i love n look after sammi sim si teng aka baby dar dar", "
Hope tat god is not trying to disturb me by giving me a chance to love u then take u away...u mean alot to me nw i cant inage losing u..i be heartbroken..u make me realise the sweet feeling of love again" These are taken from past sms-es from you to me. but yet... right now... "
thanks for also letting me wake up from my dream.i been sleeping for too long already...i tired n sick of all yr nonsense ..i cant take tis type of shit any more" are the sms-es that i receive from you.
what the hell is happening between the two of us?! what went wrong?!
17:22
09 February 2009
muahahahahahaha!!!!!! Guess wad?! my hamsters, zhuzhu and qiuqiu has finally given birth!!!
all the while, marcus and me was thinking that qiuqiu is the male one and zhuzhu is the female one... so on friday, when we saw the baby hamsters under qiuqiu stomach, i was totally shocked!!! so, qiuqiu is the female one and zhuzhu is the male one.. that actually explains why zhuzhu is always bullying qiuqiu.. apparantly, zhuzhu has a really big EGO.. hahas... qiuqiu gave birth to 4 baby hamsters.. till today, i can see their fur color already.. which is really short.. hahas.. 1 of them is exactly like qiuqiu, white with a black strip down the back, 2 is black and 1 is white.. their eyes is not opened yet, and they are learning to stand on their 4 little feets.. hahas.. it's so awesome man!!!
secondly, i tio 4D yesterday, saturday. i went to buy 8489 12 permutation $10big on friday.. a last min 'ling gan'... hahas.. and it open as 4889 in starters.. i strike 208.30 bucks.. hahas... i'm so lucky man!!! hahas..
anyway, haven been getting real lucky with those new year gambling tho.. hahas.. the card game 'si gi pi' i won about a 100.. den lost it to some card game that each player on have 3 cards.. hahas... as the chinese saying goes, 'shu shao shuan ying'..
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