i'm back from langkawi!!! it's freaking fun lahz!!! the water is friggin' clear and i can simply see the fishes and several baby sharks from the shore lahz!!! they don't bite so i don't have to worry about that. damn freaking nice lahz!!! i went scuba diving.. for the first time in my life!!! i touch the corals, i see big schools of fishs... the touch of the corals is like they were sucking to your fingers.. the feeling is so eeyer.. but it was fun after you got used to it.. i dived into about 8m deep.. and den i saw big barracudas and shark!!! like i say, they don't bite! after that i went up to the shore and have my lunch.. it was the worst lunch that i ever had before lahz!!! wahlau!! the bread is limp, the drumstick looks like it had been left there for god knows how many hours and the hotdog is tasteless and soggy, not to mention limp. and the nuggets were super disgusting that i have no appetite to eat though i'm like super hungry.. so we waited for my instructor to come back up after bringing the second batch of people out to diving.. and we went island touring.. ohh yahz!! we were in this small island which is named coral island (translation from the malay name which is pulau something, i've forgotten).

we went island touring.. and it was so freaking fun lahz!! we went snorkelling at the soft corals sea all the way to the japanese sea area.. as known to the divers.. well, i have no idea why is it called the japanese sea area though.. but the soft corals sea area was named for it's wonderful purple soft corals growing everywhere... it was freaking nice... by this time, the water is super clear, more clear than those that i've seen at the shore.. i can see the corals from the boat... above the sea! imagine how amazing that is! pictures will be up soon as long as i've upload them into my computer... muahahaha!!!

you people should really go there sometime. and i'm heading to the Maldives to take my diving licence during may.. if nothing goes wrong, i'll be flying on 23rd may. wish me luck!! lol...

02:23

all you care about is just yourself. where were you when i needed your care and concern? you think i really give a damn about bear and smc de care and concern? all smc does is to make me go out with him when i'm sick. he doesn't even care whether my fever is burning or wad fuck shit. when he felt my forehead all he said was not that bad mahz when i feel my whole head burning. wad is this? is this the care and concern that i want? NO! wad i want is someone to ask me how am i feeling, have i taken my medications and what the doctor says and stop me from eating or drinking those things that i'm not suppose to! not someone who keeps asking me out and letting me eat or drink or go clubbing or do whatever fuck shit that i'm doing! you said everybody gets sick. TRUE! but who has fever for 6 days in a row?!

bear stepped in at the right time. he gave me the care and concern which you should be giving me instead of him. if you had shown me a wee bit of concern, i would be happy enough and i wouldn't even be contacting him. at least he appreciate me, he cared for me like he really loves me. if you really did claim that you love me, you would have been doing that and not saying that there's alot of people around me showing me care and concern and that if you do the same thing also, you will just be another guy. you will never be just another guy in my eyes. all i wanted was really simple. just some care and concern from you! is that so fucking difficult for you? NO! den why can't you do it? there's no law or unwritten law stating that you can't care for me when there are other people around showing me their care and concern which i don't really give a damn about!

dying is still the best way out! i don't have to worry about everything. i wil be stress free! how nice will it be... yea.. i should just start cutting my wrists again. look down on me if you want. i don't give a damn. hopefully, it will just be deep enough to kill me.

13:56

My tears were rolling down silently
as you turned on your back
and walk away from me,
out of my life and me.
Though there's a deep hatred
inside me, I know that
I can never be mad at you
when I see you.
The smell of your cigarette
lingers on as you walk
further and further away from me.
I know that I will not be able to
see you once again in the near future
I am sorry for the things I've done,
I'm sorry for the hurt that I've caused you.
I am sorry for everything that had happened.
I know that I will do my utmost
to win you back.
But I'm not sure whether you will turn
your back on me once again.
I cannot withstand another hurt inside me anymore.
I can't afford to take any risk.
I've decided to move on and forget you.
It hurts me badly to make this decision.
Once again, you stepped into my life again.
You have helped to ease the pain inside me.
I simply Love You.


14:13

THIS IS A POST DEDICATED TO BRENDA.

LISTEN UP BRENDA. YOU ARE A FUCKING BITCH. DON'T TRY TO SPOIL THINGS BETWEEN ME AND EDWIN. YOU HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHY I WROTE THOSE THINGS THAT I WROTE ON MY BLOG. SO JUST STOP FUCKING MEDDLING IN EDWIN'S AND MY PERSONAL LIVES. STOP BEING A BITCH AND HANDLE YOUR OWN LIFE WELL. I KNOW WHO THE FUCK YOU ARE! JUST WATCH OUT. ONE DAY I'M GONNA HUNT YOU DOWN.

JUST MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS! YOU WILL NOT WISH TO STEP ON MY TAIL. YOU WILL FUCKING REGRET IT! TRY ME IF YOU DARE. JUST FUCKING TRY ME. YOU CAN REPORT TO THE POLICE IF YOU WANT BITCH. YOU CAN REPORT TO BLOOGER.COM TO REPORT ME, YOU CAN DO WHATEVER FUCK TO SAVE YOUR OWN SORRY LITTLE ASS BUT YOU ARE STILL GOING TO GET IT FROM ME. JUST STOP TRYING TO COME IN BETWEEN ME AND EDWIN. YOU ARE JUST FUCKING JEALOUS OF ME HAVING SUCH A WONDERFUL BOYFRIEND LIKE HIM. JUST FUCKING ADMIT IT BITCH! OR IS IT BECAUSE YOU ARE JUST TOO BORED OF YOUR LIFE THAT YOU BEGAN TO MEDDLE INTO PEOPLE'S LIFE TOO? JUST LIKE ESTHER THE OTHER TIME. CLAIMING THAT SHE'S TRYING TO HELP US, ENDED UP LIKING EDWIN AND TRIED TO COME IN BETWEEN US. DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT BITCH!

MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS BITCH!

01:32

went to school yesterday.. after that i met darren.. we were suppose to meet 10.45p.m at cine.. i reach there around 10.35p.m.. and he reach at 11.25p.m.. he's so freaking late lahz!!! hahas.. den we went to E2Max to play com games.. actually wanto play HS5 de.. but they don't have the game there.. which is like really lame.. since they got the advert there but they don't have the game there.. ended up playing Dota and i got killed mysteriously.. i don't even know how i die or lose.. hahas.. den we played CS... i killed him so many friggin' times.. hahas.. went to his place to drink.. ended up stay there till this morning 9a.m.. cabbed home, shower, change den come out le.. went to clementi to meet jes for work.. which only gives out HS5 de game installation DVDs.. supposed to work till 4p.m de... we gave all out pretty fast and end at 3p.m instead.. hahas.. den now at lan shop blogging.. really sucks.. like so totally.. hahas... shall just stop here den.. i missed ET so much.. but he's been mad at me for like 4 whole days.. pretty upset about it cus i don't know where i did wrong.. so yahz... but he apologised today and admits that he misses me too.. hahas... told me quite strictly not to flirt with his colleague.. lolx...

i do not know who the hell is that "Brenda" in my tagboard.. but it justs seems like she is someone who friggin' jealous about my life and my beauty... wahahaha...

listen up Brenda, you do not know me, so don't even think about commenting on my blog and criticise me. just mind your own business.. what i do with guys that is in my life is none of your f**king business.

16:34

sweetest love... <3

16:38

went clubbing on wednesday.. had so much fun.. got to know an australian guy.. a citibank banker.. he happens to be at mos on wed.. hahas.. he's quite sweet... not too bad in fact.. hahas.. he's 28.. just told mitch, my buddy on the phone just now.. haha.. and mitch actually say that me and shu bing got one thing in common.. that is we are both attracted to older guys.. which is very true in my case.. i'm always attracted to older guys.. hahas.. went out with bryan on friday.. we went clubbing at 2am in the morning.. yup.. went to mos again.. haha.. hmmm.. it was real fun.. hahas.. saw the australian guy there.. btw, his name is ramon.. haha.. we've kissed.. that's all.. nothing much happens after that.. hahas... went clubbing on sat with my bro, brenda and simone.. and it was real fun also.. while me and brenda were at the bar getting our drinks, another banker by the name of edmund talked to brenda.. we actually pulled him to the dance floor and dance with us.. hahas.. we girls suppose that since, he's standing by the bar alone and drinking red wine looking so EMO, we shall just let him join our group.. which was really funny.. he's the oldest there and he doesn't really dance that well.. so yahz.. haha... gosh.. i'm really interested in older men.. but the problem is that, i never knows which of them is really interested in me.. not my body, not my smile, but just me.. hahas.. anyway, edmund claims that i'm the one he is really interested in, but he sees that i'm not so friendly, he didn't dare talk to me.. hahas.. ohh well.. i just can't help it that i have a fierce look.. if i don't smile.. hahas.. well, in fact, i'm a super friendly person.. well... not really that super friendly.. but i do see who i am actually communicating with... try to find out what's his background and what he works as.. if i'm interested in the job that he's having or his family background, i will continue the conversation.. that may sound so materialistic of me, but i just wanto be selfish about who i make friends with.. nothing wrong with that isn't it? anyway, every single one of us are selfish aren't we?

16:21

16:33

me and jes; my secondary school fren

15:51

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Complicated with a touch of Simplicity