09 July 2010
Why am I always the one waiting for your call?Why am I always the one who don't receive replies from you?
Why whenever I call you, you don't pick up, and when you called me back or picked up after a few calls, you are not apologetic at all?
And when I don't pick up your calls, replies your SMS, you will get angry. Haven't you stand in my shoes and try to see from my point of view?
I feel like a small child in your presence. I feel like I need to get your approval in everything I do, and when I don't, I get upset (tho' I don't show it out).
It's like everything have to go and be done according to your way. When I suggest otherwise, you will get defensive, angry, and insist on doing it your way. Is it your ego acting up or is it just in your blood like your mum?
Whenever I text you, I won't get any replies when you are the one who asked me to text you when I have something to tell you. It's just so different. I don't like it. When we were still dating, you would reply to my SMSes like immediately and when you don't, you will apologize about it. But now that we are married, you don't even bother replying and when you does reply, it's always 'take good care of yourself, love.' and nothing else. Is it cus you are bored facing my everyday? Is it cus you don't love me anymore? The topics between us is always about your job and the kids. Nothing else. Whenever I try to talk to you about me, you will be like totally not interested in what I do at all. Whenever you called while you're at work, it's always 'hey baby, I reach the vessel already. Here got no reception, I'll call you when I'm done with paperwork. Anything SMS me. Love you, bye'. And all I got to say was 'Okay, love you bye'.
When you're done with paperwork, you'll call as promised, but the conversation will go 'Hey lao po, I finish my paperwork already. I'm going to sleep liaoz. Call you tomorrow when I reach shore. Love you, bye'. And again, all I got to say was 'Okay, love you too, bye'.
I text you, you don't bother replying. You text me, I haven't even got the chance to read the message, you call me and demand to know why I didn't reply your message. WTF?!
Now, who can tell me, what kinda 'healthy' relationship is this?
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