22 February 2009
what's happening?! why must it comes to this?! i know many people, especially that someone who is involve will blame everything on me. He thinks that i am the one who look for quarrels, threatens, and words come out from my mouth insensitively... well, you know what? I DON'T CARE!!! where were the happier times? where is the once you that i know really well? must i suffer everything, bear with everything in the dark, silently? must i? you said i never give in, you said i am insensitive, you said i'm difficult to handle. i did give in, it's just that you never realise. i am sensitive, just that i'm straight-forward in my words. i am actually not difficult to handle. i just need my friends back, i just need a little bit of my freedom back. why can't you give me that simple thing. i've bottled too many things inside me already. you asked me why i didn't blog anymore, i told you i've got nothing to blog about. that's totally not true. i've got tons of things to get off my chest, i chose not to simply cus i didn't want to upset you if you sees it. when you see/read things that you don't like, you will chide me off, and we will then lead to a quarrel. i don't want to quarrel, i want a peaceful life! i am happy when i know it! i want to give it a chance in this world! but why can't you just understand that i need more understanding and concern from you like you once promised me? "I love you so much..i want to be with u i PROMISE i love n look after sammi sim si teng aka baby dar dar", "Hope tat god is not trying to disturb me by giving me a chance to love u then take u away...u mean alot to me nw i cant inage losing u..i be heartbroken..u make me realise the sweet feeling of love again" These are taken from past sms-es from you to me. but yet... right now... "thanks for also letting me wake up from my dream.i been sleeping for too long already...i tired n sick of all yr nonsense ..i cant take tis type of shit any more" are the sms-es that i receive from you. what the hell is happening between the two of us?! what went wrong?!17:22