19 November 2008
I have absolutely no idea why i tends to give people the wrong impression. is it cus of the way i do things or is it cus of the way i speak...? :s
to be frank, i haven been eating well, resting well or even well recently.. been facing alot of problems and i'm solving them tactfully, i hope, myself without asking for opinions..
well, i wanna pierce my tongue later in the day.. i'm damn fucking sure of it right now.. i guess it's just a way of me trying to get another piercing on my body for the problems that i've overcame.. another phase that i'm going thru..
if i were to die tomorrow, counting the piercings that i have would have tell you alot.. perhaps not alot when you don't know me well or know me long enough. i guess it's just me to use bodily pain/hurt to mark a passing phase of my life. till this point, i've got 8 piercings on my ears and 1 on my naval. plus my tongue, i'd have got 10.. yes!!! 10!!!finally i have got 10!!!
every piercing of mine tells a story.. don't ask me what story it tells cus it doesn't matter.. even my tattoo tells a story too!
i am so angry now!!! it's like everything i do is wrong and everything is my fault! fine! i don't need you to put any hopes on me anymore! think about it, i went against my parents to be with you, after 2 months, you went for the stupid OBO, things happen at both my side and yours! it's not just me that had changed, you had changed too! you became more obsessive and controlling and EGOISTIC!!! you expect me to stay home after work and just sit there dumbly and wait for your call! you expect me to pick up your call everytime, go home early just so that you can talk to me! what about me?! don't i need time to spend with me frens too?! don't i have a right to?! my life doesn't revolve around just you! you claiim that i only think for myself.. what about you?! aren't you doing the same thing too?! it's the pot calling the kettle black!
FUCK YOU! FUCK THE WORLD! FUCK EVERYTHING FOR ALL I CARE!
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