23 July 2008
i may well not be going to Brisbane for my studies le. i have decided not to continue with this crazy relationship anymore lest you guys have to visit me in IMH.
what i sought after in a relationship is not all the material things that i can get from you. but the support i can get from you and all those needed and long awaited care and concern. neither a dash too much mor a dash too little. whatever you are not happy with me, i did change, but you must appreciate me and compliment me. you can't just be happy with that and move on trying to change my other flaws. which human being have no flaws? i am a human being, not a robot that you are trying to build to perfection. what you need is not a kind of girl that is me, but a girl who is like your mother. i did dream of being your wife, being the perfect wife when we get married. but right now, i am neither your wife nor your gf. so please respect my decision and move on with your life. perhaps few years down the road, something will change both of us and we will go back to each other again. but for now, i just want to clear my mind lest i really go crazy.
you can't demand me to change overnight when i have never ever demand you to change overnight. to be frank, i am not happy with you again. thinking back at the days when we are together, i find myself really foolish. i will not make the same mistake anymore. this time round, i will follow my heart. nobody can control how the heart feels and wad the heart tells us to do. thank you for letting me step into your life and let me experience the high-end life that i probably will not enjoy for the rest of my life. please let all just be well and move on with each other's life.16:47