sigh.. i just don't understand why are you so protective towards her. i got the answers that i always wanted to know today. you still got 'feel' for her. no wonder all these while, you are always helping her be it in the financial form or whatever it is. you promised that you won't lend her money anymore. you told me that you are just going to lend her 100 bucks cus her mum borrow from you de. at the end of the day, you broke your promise, be it you lent her a hundred bucks or 800 which is the amount that you lend it to her. you know i hate her, yet you are still helping her. i'm angry with you not cus of you lending her money instead of returning my fren money. talking about money, i know it's a sensitive issue. you can just take out 800 to lend her but you can't take out 800 to let me go thailand with my parents. i told you the truth that i'm going to thailand with my parents, you don't believe. you said that you want to go and check. so fine! go ahead and check. i'm just stumped for words when you said that you don't trust me. if you don't trust me, what for you are in this relationship with me? if you don't trust me, why says that you want to have a future with me and stuffs like these that makes me think that you trust me? you are just another fucking bastard. you have no sexual attraction towards me, and when you have the need, you come and look for me. wo do you think i am? some sort of social escort? or a whore? or even more lowly, like a prostitute? why don't you go look for that SUPER HOT EX, Vicky? i bet she will do anything for you if you just give her a lump sum of money or even a few hundred bucks. or even better, you don't have to pay her, just tell her that, that 800 bucks she doesn't have to return a single cent at all. you ask me what did i do wrong, why am i so angry when i don't even love you. let me answer you.
What did you do wrong.- you lied about the amount of money that you lent her.
- you told me that you are lending her money AFTER you have transferred her a.k.a lent her.
- you are not willing to give me the money to go overseas with my parents.
you don't trust me.
now that is where you did wrong. after all these mistakes, you still got the cheek to tell me that you are going to check the whole day flight from singapore to thailand on who i am going with. let me tell you this once and for all, I AM GOING WITH MY MUM AND UNCLE. i do hope this gets into your mind. cus if i doesn't, i'm going to literally knock it into your head. you think alot this few days. all you care about is THAT SUPER HOT EX of yours and her problems. ever thought of me or my problems? NO! i dare say that you have never thought of it at all. you said you are going to keep all your promises to me. i'm going to list down all the promises that you have made to me.
- PSP Slim (white)
- Nitendo DS Lite (white)
- Ipod Theater
- K850i (New Phone)
- Digital Camera
- the GoldHeart necklace
- never contact THAT SUPER HOT EX of yours
- never lend THAT SUPER HOT EX of your money
- Return my friend $500 on your Birthday
have you fulfilled any of these? NO! you have not! which is why i am so angry. all these anger are accumulated de. n0t just let you 'hong' den will stop angry de. i'm punishing you in a way that i ignore your every sms-es and calls are cus i want to make you remember the mistakes that you have done and will not repeat them again! and i also want you to know that having tons and tons of money doesn't solve everything. money can't buy you forgiveness or happiness. you can bribe someone to take the rap for you but you will not live in peace. you will be haunted by the memory of it. and one day, the law will catch up to you. you can run now, but you can't run forever. it's the same logic. don't ever think that this has no link to what you have done to hurt me. not cus i want to hurt you or what shit. really, being with you will really cost me to lose a few years or even more. to be frank, you are the most stupidiest person i have ever seen. talking to you this way, i'm not scolding you or what, i just want to make you understand why i am behaving this way. i don't care whether you show this to your mum, sis or whoever you wanna show it to. really!! I DON'T CARE! this time round, i'm not in the wrong. i ask for a new hp, cus my camera is spoilt, my scroll is spoilt. not cus i want the latest model or what shit. i want a camera cus you promised me that.
you are just so unremorseful. it's not my fault that my phone spoilt at this time, it's not my fault that CNY is round the corner and i need New Year's clothes. you can buy her clothes, you didn't even discuss with me first. just promise her things without consulting me. do you think that's fair? you said you are not commiting anything into this relationship yet cus i didn't commit. didn't i try to love you, didn't i try not to hurt you? if i didn't want to commit or even don't have the intention to commit, why in God's name would i promise your father that i won't hurt you and that if i don't love you, i will leave you no matter what? doesn't it all makes sense? now i'm the one commiting and you are not. is that fair? and you claims or even worse, assumes that i didn't commit, that's why you did all these. it's so fucking unfair on me. i felt so hurt to hear that you know. sigh..02:40