10 December 2007
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today will be the 3rd month and 3rd day we are together if we didn't break up. after the talk that we had last night, i got a call this afternoon. asking me to go for an interview at AMK at 10 in the morning tomorrow. which is for the position of admin assistant. which is why i'm so excited to tell you. called you. you didn't pick up. text you, you didn't reply. what the heck are you doing anyway? well anyway, is it possible for you to accompany to the interview tomorrow? if cannot then it's okay. don't worry so much. sometimes, life is like this. when you want that something so much, you can't find it. when you don't want it that much or given up hope on it already, it comes to you. i don't know whether these kinda things happen to you guys anot. but it always happens to me. and that's how i learn not to cry too loud and laugh loudly. the other day i text in to CLASS 95FM to tell the DJ about how i feel. and she played the song 'You Are Not Alone' by Micheal Jackson. it really touches my heart. i still remembered the advice. 'If you don't wanna smile then don't smile. If you wanna cry then just cry. If you don't wanna laugh then don't laugh. one day, you will walk out of this depression and you will look back and think,'hey! why ami like this in the past?'. you will even laugh about it when you wake up from this nightmare.' thinking back to what she'd said, she does have a point there. the msg just sink in without me realising it. and that is really such a wonderful feeling knowing that there's something inside you that you can turn to whenever you are feeling low. something that will always be there whenever you need advice or encouragement. well.. that really picks me up a 'lil bit more then ever. and i strongly believe that there will be more improvements in the near future. Baby, i want you to look at how i change from a baby to a mature adult. i want you to see every single little detail that i do to change.14:39