07 December 2007
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sometimes, life is just so unpredictable. when you think that you will be happy in doing something or meeting someone, you'll end up disappointed by the end result. it'll not only make you feel more depress, more upset, more emo. it also won't give you the feeling that you want which is usually positive feelings. i.e. happy. i don't know why. i've tested the waters, i've got the end result. but still i want to try further more. i want to test the water some more. i might be just stubborn. unable or even refuse to accept the result. trying to test till i got the results i want. which no one will know when will i get it or how am i suppose to get it. it's like, you know the sea water is salty. you've tasted it, you've tried it. but still you still want to taste it some more. you choose not to believe that it's salty. you want to taste it till it becomes sweet. but, everyone knows that the sea water is salty. everyone tells you to forget about getting the end results that you want. but you still stubbornly want to try till it has become sweet. you get what i mean? this is exactly what i'm feeling and doing now. is it stupid of me or is it that love is indeed blinding me. impaired my eye sight. making me reading and seeing the wrong moves. see the opposite of what it is suppose to be, making the wrong decision, taking a wrong step. hmmmmm...... my head is full of questions. full of unanswered questions, which is yelling at me to get the answers. but no matter where i look, how i think, i still can't get the answers. can anyone give me the answers that i need? anyone? hello.....???00:31