02 November 2007
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feeling: not so empty right now, got myself at least a 'lil nearer to the right track.
just came back from double c.
drank quite a bit.
but still don't feel anything yet.
had a talk to someone.
cus he said he wanto be a listening ear.
and e talk back.
i want a listening ear whereby the ear doesn't talk but just listen quietly.
just like this pretty 'lil blog of mine.
feels much better right now.
thought about alot of things today.
like wad happened recently.
i think i've done some really terrible things to a guy.
like insulting him but not with words.
with my actions i did that.
kinda regret it.
cus after i did that i just lost a good friend totally.
although he treats me with so much care and concern which a friend is not suppose to.
but.... oh well....
what's done cannot be undone.
what can i do now except for cherishing everything that i have right now.
having what, i don't want to mention here in case the wrong eye reads this.
*not referring to anybody, but... well.. you know*
finding that my life is a laughing stock.
as in the way i handle my own life.
i just let everything that happens to my life took total control of it.
which is something i've done terribly wrong which leds to so much of the trouble in my life.
ohh well....
people tends to make mistakes.
it's just how are you going to learn from it.
for now, i'll just take it that life or rather GOD is trying to teach me some things which will equip me in dealing with life in the future.
QUOTE TO OWNSELF: LEARN FROM MISTAKES AND TRY TO READ WHAT IS GOD TRYING TO TEACH ME. GRIT MY OWN TEETH AND FACE IT STRONGLY [direct translation from chinese].03:56