28 November 2007
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sometimes i just feel like being alone. ignoring everybody's pressing questions.
there are works to be done, things to be done. but i just need some time alone.
read somebody's blog, feels so upset. although that person may or may not mean anything to me. but still he's a friend. i' just wondering, what went wrong or what did i do wrong. why does things turns out the way it shouldn't be. i'm just so curious. did i cock up somewhere in my life? so why does things turn out the way it does?
haiz.... i really don't know what to do. i wanto be alone. but i can't find the time to be alone. i want someone to be there for me, but i want to be alone. i'm really confuse. i really don't know what to do. is there someone who can really guide me to the tunnel of light? i hate to be in this situation. i hate to feel this way. i don't like to be feeling this way. i really hate it. i don't want to feel this way. i really hope to find the way of light. i want to say all the things in my heart in my blog but there are just some stuffs from the bottom of my heart that i can't express here. moreover i can't express myself well also. i really have no outlet to show my displeasure already. i don't do sports, i don't drink as much as before, i don't club as much as before, i don't do anything else. to stop myself from thinking, i sleep. sleeping is in fact a waste of time, i don't like it. but i've got no where else to give out all my extra energy. i love working, but it's just that my time is turning the other way round le. i find it difficult to find a day time job. it's not i don't want to find a job, it's not i lazy. but........ haiz.......... no longer knows what i want.02:41